sometimes i think that what we perceive as reality is a silent veil that has been manufactured over time to keep us from seeing the true nature of what is truth. i recently had an out of body experience that left me questioning waking reality. my body was completely shut down and my mind had taken full control placing me in a world all my own that i had created. i was there. it was real. i felt and smelled everything just as it should be. the man of my dreams was present, but it wasn't a dream. he was real. our lips touched. our hands were held together so tightly as if he knew at any moment that i would be gone forever. he knew that i didn't have the power yet to hold on. before waking, he was screaming for me to hold on. DON'T LET GO! but i couldn't. i've been feeling the over-whelming sense of loss. the desperation to return is eating away at my insides. what now?
