dark side of my eye

i'm tired of being used for whatever purpose they need. when do I get the support that I need? not just to use, but to acknowledge and praise and respect it. i'm always around when i'm needed. i can't seem to find someone to be that for me. i've been here to help put them on their path towards where ever they are supposed to go. i guess the difference is that i don't have or want to go anywhere. except to drink myself into the oblivion. that sounds like a nice place. i mean, fucking seriously! i go to the extreme to help people and i don't get shit for it! i think i'm going to get a new tattoo tom. no, i don't think i am! i'm so angry right now! i have a right to be!